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Goodbye, summer 2010. Welcome, autumn.}

Tuesday, August 31, 2010 | 9:38 AM | 0 comment

Well, Internet, my summer has come to an end.

Actually, it came to an end on the 17th. I started school then, and so far, it's not so bad. I like my classes all right, except for Algebra 2, maybe. But I'm don't decent in that class, so, I'm not upset over it.
I'm also taking Chemistry, American Government, English (speaking of which, I'm supposed to be doing my Autobiographical narrative right now...shh...), Music Appreciation and Psychology. I love psychology. I don't know why, but it's just so COOL.

I also have a new two month old baby cousin that I just love so much. Off subject, I know, but he's the cutest thing I've ever seen in my entire life.

Anyway, for this school year, I fixed up my school room, and it has a butterfly chair and a radio and knick knacks and framed picture of Holly Golightly. I actually like being in there now. It's so cute!

My friends have started school too, and they seem to like this school year so far. The school has changed a lot since I went there. Since the school's a private school (one that's been open since the seventies, by the way), they're having a bit of a money problem, considering the recession and all. And 'money problem' is putting it VERY lightly.

Originally, they had two separate campuses for the Elementary school and the middle & high school, but they had to SELL the entire Elementary school campus for money. Not an entirely smart idea in my opinion, I think they would've made more money by renting out the campus and getting a monthly rent rather than just a lump sum, but whatever. They must've been desperate.

Resulting, the elementary school moved into the same building as the Middle schoolers, which sucks for both parties. I was terrified by Middle schoolers when I was in Elementary, and having Kindergartners running around the hallways and around your legs and 2nd graders standing in your way when you're in a rush to your locker doesn't sound so welcoming. I'm just glad this all happened after I graduated Junior High.

And apparently, they've cut back on spending also, because they've filled all their soda vending machines with plain water, sold half of the school's trash cans, sold a few printers to cut back on ink prices, and have talked about getting rid of the snack vending machines as well. Ouch.

And since so many things there have gone downhill, tons of people transferred school this year. Like, TONS. I don't blame them. Best Friend Rose said that all the hot people are gone, so things are boring now. Sounds it.

So, I'm pretty much thankful for my school experience now. Well, I have been, but even more so now. No pressure, no drama, just school. So I can actually FOCUS on my grades. It's a relief.

And Jazz is pretty much okay with school right now, too, except for one thing. She's decided to distance herself from Johnny and everyone else in that group.

Johnny's changed a lot in two years. I feel like I don't even know him anymore. Two years ago now, we were so close. SO close. He had drug problems in the past, and he could be a jerk sometimes, but he was a good friend. If I needed to talk about something seriously, he would listen. I felt like he cared about my life and what was happening.

But something happened. I don't know what, but something happened.

He's tried every drug I can probably think of, he's a total douche bag (reference point: dumping Jazz after ONE WEEK of going out), he's addicted to sex and does anything with a pulse and boobs, he's two faced and manipulative, and he doesn't give a crap about anybody.

I went to the mall with Johnny and Jazz a few weeks ago, and Johnny acted so strangely at first. It was like we weren't even friends. A little later, he got a little better, but I remember one specific incident when I said something dumb in a joking manner, instead of teasing me and laughing like he would've normally done, he literally acted like I was mentally impaired. It hurt my feelings, and it came out of nowhere, so I was shocked. He never would've done that before.

And, on the anniversary of Jazz's mother's death, Jazz was feeling, understandably, depressed. She was hanging out with Johnny that day, and when he asked her why she was 'acting so mopey', and she told him, he told her to 'get over it'.

When I heard that, I was livid. Jazz only just told me about this, and it happened in May. How could someone say that? How could he say that and call himself her friend? You DO NOT say that to ANYBODY who's lost someone, especially in the manner Jazz lost her mother.

You just DON'T.
And if he weren't such a condescending, self-centered asshole, he'd be able to grasp something as simple as that.

So I'm proud of Jazz for distancing herself from him. He doesn't deserve Jazz as a friend. Hell, he doesn't deserve any friends, and how he has any right now blows my mind.

And since we're on the subject of Johnny, let's talk about Ricky Bobby, too. Johnny and Ricky Bobby hang out all the time. In fact, once RB moved back here, hanging out between them was almost an everyday thing.

I found out that the whole 'I still like Ricky Bobby' thing for me isn't true. What is true is that I'm still attracted to him, and I possibly always will be. It's just one of those attraction things that never go away, and I'm okay with that. But I don't like him like him. Which is a relief, because from what I hear, he's pretty much an asshole too (a sexy asshole).

And he's doing that whole 'I hate it here' thing that he did when he first moved here in the 8th grade. Which is whatever. He's a bipolar douchebag, and always has been. I just forgot that while he was in Pennsylvania. So, I just don't really give (much of a) crap about him these (recent) days.

Later today, I'm getting my reserved copy of the first book of Cassandra Clare's prequel series to The Mortal Instruments series, The Infernal Devices, called Clockwork Angel. It just came out last night at midnight. I think that officially qualifies me to be a book nerd, but I don't care and OH MY GOD I'M SO EXCITED.

So right now, things are pretty good. My summer was great too. I now have a life again, which is a huge contrast from the last school year. I'm happy now. I'm taking it one day at a time, and I'm good with it.

Here's to a great Junior year! ;)

xo Hopeless Romantic

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