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Thursday, July 9, 2009 | 10:05 PM | 0Comment Hey Internet! So, I'm finally going to fill you in on everything that happened with Phil during the rest of the school year. I can't believe I put it off for this long, there's so much to tell you! But to make things easier, I'll use bullet points.
Sadly, that is where this tale ends. So far, at least. And, it's not like I didn't try to keep in touch with Phil. I really, truly did. He has a Facebook, and I tried talking to him, but he was so busy, he couldn't find the time to reply until mostly weeks later. And I could sort of tell by the way he replied that he wasn't really interested in talking to me. So, it's okay. I'm a little disappointed, but to be honest, I wasn't as into him as I've been into other guys. Sometimes, it felt like he liked me more than I liked him. And that wasn't fair to him. So, I think it's better this way. And I know that there will come guys that I will like ten times more than I liked Phil. Here's to hoping for a significant number of new guys at our school next school year. And here's to hoping that a 'summer thing' that I've been hoping for will happen. Ever since I was young, I've always wanted a Summer Romance. Doesn't that sound so romantic? Just the concept of it sends my heart into a frenzy. And it's July already! I don't have a summer job this summer. Well, I was supposed to work for my dad, but I guess he decided he didn't want to hire me anymore. So, no summer job. I barely get to leave the house during the week because, 1: I can't legally drive myself yet, and 2: There's never anyone to drive me places. because trust me, if I did, I would definately go places. Everyone's always at work or something. So I'm stuck in the house all the time, wasting away, getting paler, watching suckish daytime T.V. Let's hope my summer gets a kick-start...and soon! xo Hopeless Romantic Missed Connections.}
Sunday, June 28, 2009 | 11:22 PM | 0Comment Something else I discovered recently- the Missed Connections section on Craigslist. "To woo you with the sweetest of words in a sonnet or poem of my heart, would satisfy my urgency to see you smile sweetly. To be the one who hid himself in the shadows, and play the songs of my soul, to settle your worries to allow your comfort in sleep. Oh but to have my heart's steady beating transition you from dreams to consciousness, while morning's sun flavour our bedroom with soft beams of light. To recieve YOUR gaze of contentment, and being YOUR choice from all suitors, The feel of your hand fanned out close to my heart in a quiet, nestled embrace, just once, even if never again. A life beautiful, is the intimate dream of the heart... fulfilled. I have left the place where I can hope to see you at even a glance or in passing, where I can pretend that exchanging pleasantries was just that. Possibly hide the way I want to gaze in speechless amazement of you, the way a prince looks into the eyes of his princess. I should not want for you this way, yet to convince me otherwise is to convince those who long for summers' warmth to stay contented in winters' frosts. Not so easily done. At the turn of random happenings today you had again smiled upon my daydreams, and an unconscious smile developed within me and on my lips as though you could see me smiling at you. So soft and genuine, I was powerless to do nothing but return a smile back. I regret very little in my decisions in life, yet I regret not having told you in voice what I now script to this abyss of sorts in the off-fantasy that you would find and recognize who I am. I fear that you would find me, and desire what I desire even in the smallest of extent, in it that the attraction was mutual. Even where I am now it is not possible to escape your pleasant haunting,and know this... nor do I wish to." I have no words. Well maybe except: WHERE DO GUYS LIKE THIS LIVE, AND WHY DON'T I KNOW ANY OF THEM? I promise you guys, I'll get around to blogging about my actual life soon. Hahaha. xo Hopeless Romantic Attention, Prince Charming.}
Saturday, June 27, 2009 | 8:39 PM | 0Comment "I wish I could convince you I need you. I wish you could see how I see you. I wish you would let go of your mistakes. I love you, I need you. I don't want to spend my life without you. Your beautiful, your precious, your unique. Your the one woman who was stolen my heart. I don't care about you choosing him over me. I don't care about your mistakes. I care about you. I looked at you that way because you are the love of my life. Maybe the timing is not the same as everyone else, but with each day that passes I know I love you more. Please let go of the past. Your to valuable and needed in my life. You are so beautiful to me. Your the one I think about because your my inspiration. Without you to inspire me all I feel is emptiness. Your needed, I need you. I sent you those things to convince you of your worth to God. I sent you those things to help you let go of your mistakes. Please stop pretending let go of the past." "The more you lie to me, You hurt me. The more you pretend nothing happened between us, You hurt me. The more you deny the truth, You hurt me. The more you think about your mistakes, You hurt me. The more you think I would be better off without you, You hurt me. The more you won't forgive yourself, You hurt me. It's been close to a year since I have seen you and your all I think about. Will you let your mistakes rule the rest of your life? How long will true love past you by because your afraid about me seeing the real you? I just wish in someway someday I could convince you I need you in my life. Without you I feel my inspiration is gone. I am not better off without you. Your a unique woman who devalues herself by not seeing your truth worth. The fear and the shame you have had all your life I want to take away. You won't let me because it's something which puts everything you've known to risk. It's like stepping out on the water. You are an inspiration to me. Your exactly what I need. Here the voice of truth in your heart. Let go of the past and embrace the love you have always wanted. Without you I am broken and lonely. Without you the sun is not as bright and breeze is not as cool." -From RomanceClass.com See stuff like this? This makes a teenage girl much more desperate for a guy than she needs to be. Where does this Prince Charming live? If you're reading this, Prince, please don't hesitate to introduce me to your very similar Charming friends. :] xo Hopeless Romantic Suprises and MORE Suprises.}
Friday, June 19, 2009 | 10:29 PM | 0Comment Internet! It's been a while, hasn't it? Alot has happened. Espacially alot with Phil. BUT, I'll fill you in with that a little later. Because something new happened. Something totally unexpected and urgent. And it's not about Phil. Remember Gene? You know, my guy friend that pretty much caused me and Phil to, more or less, have a mutual like? Our matchmaker? Remember how I insisted that he wasn't gay? Well guess what. Yep, you guessed it. Gene just told me on MSN that he thinks he's gay. Okay, I'm not gonna lie. I felt like a small part of me knew, but nevertheless, I was shocked. Super shocked. I mean, I was honored that he came to me first out of all of the people he knows, but shocked none the less. And we must have talked for two hours about it. He told me he was confused, and that an experience with another guy made it even more confusing to him. They didn't have sex or anything, but they pretty much made out. I almost didn't even know what to say, because when he told me he had to talk to me, that was pretty much the last thing I'd expect. For real. But I helped him the best I could. It's funny how one conversation can make two people so much closer. It really is. I mean, I feel like I can tell Gene anything now, espacially since he had the courage to tell me that. That took alot of guts. And he said he told me because he felt like he could trust me the most. That meant so much. And I feel like we're definately much closer friends now. like, much MUCH closer. Maybe we're even best friends now. But he's so confused right now. I just hope that eventhing works out, I really do. I feel awful that he has to face this kind of confusion right now in his life. Well, that's High School for you. xo Hopeless Romantic PS: I hope you guys didn't think I was abandoning you! Thanks once again, sapphire! :D Labels: summer Unsure.}
Thursday, May 7, 2009 | 8:23 PM | 0Comment  So, Internet. I have good news. It's official. He officially likes me back. Like, for real this time. He absolutely, very positively likes me. I still can't believe it! I didn't think it could get any better, but it did!! Am I in heaven? But, the only class I share with him, I'm always late. Then I don't get the chance to talk to him before class starts, and I never have time during or afterwards anymore (our English teacher's really strict about getting out of our seats). Hopefully that will get better. But we have texted before, so maybe I should text him more? And Jessica Simpson's not going to be at school tomarrow, so maybe I should finally use that opportunity to talk to him. By myself! Ahhh! Dx He just makes me so nervous! And I don't want things to be awkward at all. I just need to talk to him soooo bad. But I'll do it. Here's to hoping I'll have good news to bring you next entry, Internet. (PS: Thanks Sapphire! I'll definately remember that! :D I appreciate the advice!) xo Hopeless Romantic Labels: freshman year, phil Bliss.}
Tuesday, April 28, 2009 | 5:39 PM | 0Comment  Internet, today was one of the best days of my life. Sure, I had a just-average outfit consisting of a hoodie, skinny jeans + rainboots, and my hair kept getting tangles, but I didn't care. It's Phil. Pretty much after I wrote that last entry, we talked about two more times after that, and then I lost confidence. Jessica Simpson -whom I usually use as an excuse to go talk to him- was gone for a few days, and those days I didn't talk to him at all! D: I just couldn't muster up the courage. I know, pathetic, right? So, all I did was stare at him when he wasn't looking, and then look away when he looked. And that went on for a few days. And nothing else. Then, Jessica Simpson came back today. This gave me hope, and I prepared myself the entire class to talk to him at the end of the class. So, I go over there, right? I completely forget everything I was going to say. I just ended up talking to Jessica Simpson the entire three minutes. Then the bell rang, and he left. :/ As soon as I was about to beat myself up about it, she stands up and grabs my hands with an excited expression on her face. Before I can ask her, she whisper-screams, "Sarah. PHIL LIKES YOU." My jaw drops. "WHAT? Wait, how do you know??" And she says, "HE JUST TOLD ME!" And then we proceed to scream and jump up and down like- well, teenage girls. The entire trip to my next class, I thought I was going to either faint or explode. The extreme joy and excitement I felt was so overwhelming, I wanted to scream my lungs out! My hands were trembling, my heart was racing, and a huge grin was plastered on my face the entire day. And later, she told me the details (I apologize in advance for the abuse of the word 'like'. This is an exact quote, people. Hahaha). "Yeah, I was like, 'So, are you interested in Sarah at all?' And he was like, 'Is she interested in me?' And I was like, 'Yeah, a little bit.'-" That alarmed me a bit, but I was actually kind of glad she told him that. I didn't want him to think I wasn't interested, after all. "-And he was like, 'Oh, a little bit, huh?' And I was like, 'Yeah! You guys would be cute!' And he was all like, 'Really? Well, she is really pretty.' And I was like, 'Yeah? You think so?' And he was all, 'Yeah. She's absolutely gorgeous.' And I said, 'Aww! So, a little bit interested, then?' And we was like, 'Ha ha, yeah.'" I swear, I nearly died. I went from 'cute' to 'gorgeous' in a week! I didn't know what in the world to do, or how to act! How could I possibly act like I did before when someone liked me? I mean, actually, truly liked me and they weren't moving across the country in a month's time! (Ha-ha.) But, I tried my best. And of course, by the end of the day, all of my other friends already knew. But! In 7th hour, I have Gene in that class, and of course I had to tell him! So, I tell him, and we're all excited together. Then, he says, "Oh, yeah! I talked to him during break-" "Today?" I interrupt. "Yeah! And, he was like, 'Does Sarah like me?' And I said, I don't know! But you guys would be cute together. Wait, are you going out? And we was like, 'Not yet.'" I had another explosion after that. So much happened. I'm so overwhelmed! He thinks I'm gorgeous. And he's interested. And he wants to go out with me! Me! And, at this point, I think I'm going insane. I can't stop thinking about him. Every single class, I could hardly focus. Is this a dream? Will I wake up and be the wallflower nobody notices again? This Hopeless Romantic just might not be so hopeless after all. xo Hopeless Romantic Labels: freshman year, phil Confusions.}
Thursday, April 16, 2009 | 5:37 PM | 0Comment I love this picture. I just thought I'd brighten the mood a bit after that moody last entry. :D  Anyway, I have news on Phil! About a week after all that I blogged about him before, it turned out that he actually liked Lizzie, Jessica Simpson's ex-BFF. So, I was all disappointed and crap, so I decided to go back to not liking anyone after that. Then, about a month later (aka, last week), Best friend Rose and I were talking with one of our good friends, Gene, at lunch. He's an awesome guy, we talk with him about everything! He even gossips with us. Then, Phil walks by, and Phil and Gene are pretty good friends so they talk about something, and then Phil leaves. As soon as he leaves, Gene says, "He's so cool." And I say, without thinking, of course, "Yeah, he seems cool. I think he's cute." Then Gene goes all gossip-girl-y. "Oh my God, really?? You guys would be a cute couple." I look at Rose and say, "Really?" And they both nod their heads yes. Then I tell Gene about the whole Phil-Lizzie thing. "Ew, that's weird. She's not even that pretty. You hotter than her, Sarah." I say, "Aw, thanks Gene." And he goes, "I should talk to him about you!" After I hesitantly agree, after about five minutes of convincing, we come up with an awesome elaborate super-spy plan. The plan was to have me leave, buying random crap at the lunch line, and then Gene goes and talks to Phil , while Rose stays at the table and waits for us. Well, we go through with the plan, and it turns out Gene told Phil he should "Pursue Me". xDDD But, it also turns out that Gene should be a matchmaker, because when I was with my friend, another Sarah, in the library during Eighth Hour, Phil came and sat with us. We all talked, and by the end, I had Phil's number and he had mine. :D Then, the past week, we've been talking more and more, and I've come to find that he's really nice. And then today, in English, second hour...I found out something. Today, he worked with Jessica Simpson on the classwork. The past week, I had worked with both of them, but today, they had their desks pushed together, and they shared a book. Now, I knew that Jessica Simpson always forgets to bring her English book to class, and he was probably just being nice and sharing his with her so that she could get it done in class. But, I was so so jealous. And Jessica Simpson's my friend, so I know that she would never do that to me (she knows the whole situation). But I was super jealous! And you know what jealousy means, Internet.... I think I might like him. I have that floaty-crush feeling that I haven't had in forever. I actually forgot what it felt like until now. But, I can't. Not yet. I have to know if he likes me too. I've too many times been a victim of unrequited crushes. But, I think this time, it might actually become a possibility. Today, my friend Sarah told me that she asked Phil if he thought certain girls were cute. First she asked about Jessica Simpson, and he said yes. Then, she asked about a girl named Katy in our grade, and he said yes. Then, she asked about Best friend Rose, and I swear, this was his exact response: "Hmm, I don't know...but, that girl Sarah is cute." Internet, I think that is a fantastic start. PS: Sapphire, thank you! It'll definately be different this time. :D xo Hopeless Romantic Labels: freshman year, phil |
